Wednesday, July 30, 2008

It hurts

It hurts when people don't seem to care about you... May be seems is the key word. It is your perception, it need not be the truth. But still, it hurts. You feel lonely, unwanted!

There are few sides to this...

Scenario 1: People don't really care about you - Period
Scenario 2: People care about you, you dont realise it / believe that it is possible

Lets us see what it means and how you should see it...

Scenario 1: People don't really care about you - Period! Can you do something about that? If not, forget it! If yes, what are you waiting for if that is what you want. I would assume that you have a need to feel wanted and cared about. When people whom you care about don't care and hurt you - Won't you go all out and correct it? Make them love you, care about you, want you?? How you do it varies from person to person and situation to situation. Since you have a goal, things are easy!

Scenario 2: People care about you, you dont realise it/ believe that it is possible - What do I say? Ya, there are people who feel that they are not worth it and hence believe that nobody can possibly care about them and get hurt as the end result... I guess they are the ones who psycologists term as people with low self esteem! They are not confident or feel that they are beautiful or desirable or smart or whatever it is bothering them. What is is missing is self realisation. Chances are that you are not beautiful, but is that the only thing which is lacking? If so, understand your strengths and utilise them to your complete advantage. It may not help if the other person is bothered only about your beauty!

But is it worth getting hurt?? Dont you deserve better? What can be changed and what not?
May be you need to sit down and a SWOT analysis on your life! Tick those strengths, cross those weaknesses, search those opportunities and eliminate your threats! I know! It is not as simple as it seems. You need to ruthlessly brutal about this categorisation and act on it. What do you have to loose? A heart which is already broken / hurt cant be further hurt, right?

Give it a try. See the results... You may start believing in yourself!

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Mirage

Love, if you ask me, is a mirage.
The more closer you get, the farther it moves away...
Always at a distance... May be a little too far away!
But does it exist?
May be - People claim that it does
May not be - I haven't reached it yet

So, here I share my pleasure, my pain, my thoughts, my feelings and everything else, which I am possesive about and rarely share with others! With this I share my life with the world... May be somebody cares to read it! If not, no issues! For me putting it down in words is like talking to myself and sorting it out! I know I gain in the whole deal.

Saturday, July 26, 2008

Cry baby!

Sometimes I wonder why I cry over seemingly simple issues...
Do I take things too personally? I dont know...
I am too sensitive for my own taste...
In one way, I invite people to hurt me over simple things...
I don't really trust to share my thoughts with others for the simple fact that with sharing I give an opportunity to hurt me over and over again...

I close up as soon as I feel that somebody tries to tread into my domain...
Ya... Red alert! He / she may hurt you....
Protect what is yours... no point in regretting later...Aha!

You got it? That is me. I don't have a soul mate, whom I share my inner most secrets!
I have a husband whom I love little too much... I used to share with him... But results were same. He can hurt me and I just take it... It is never physical, nor he need to try hard emotionally. He can easily do it with his attitude. Poor guy... May be he deserves a better wife too...

Ya sis! I'm a cry baby. I cry when I'm hurt... I cry my heart out... My pillows, my bath room - they can narrate a lot of stories... If they could speak for themselves, I better disappear from this earth!

Hmm... I have tears in my eyes... They are threatening to fall... I feel a pain in my heart... It hurts too... Where is that friend with a good stock of tissues? Where is that balm which can ease this pain? I'm still waiting...