Bitter taste of tears

It is more than one month since I wrote my last blog. Life was too busy to stop and jot down those thoughts. But then, sharing my thoughts bring such happiness that I smile without that extra effort even when things go haywire and I would rather cry.

Now things have reached such a state that I can’t go on without stopping and sharing those thoughts. My heart is not made to hold thoughts for long – let it be joy or sorrow. I want to take it out of my system, analyze as a third party and throw it away or store it safely in that corner.

Today, I’m upset! Why? Too many things in my mind… I don’t know! I’m just upset! Tears are flowing, it hurts where all it matters! If I analyze carefully, I’m hurt that you don’t understand me! Simple as that! After so many years? Yes! How can you twist my words so well and arrange it in a different order with completely different meaning? How can you look into my eyes and say those words? I have no explanations to give for things I din’t mean. I would rather take this hurt and cry in anguish!

Today tears also taste so bitter. So bitter that, I can’t go on tasting them.